Sitting outside with My Friends all around Me and had not thought of these in quite awhile "There is no passion to be found playing small In settling for a life that is less than the one you are capable of living." - Nelson Mandela - And another great quote "I have no special talents. I am only passionately curious." - Albert Einstein - Or "We must act out passion, before we can feel it." - Jean-Paul Sartre - And King Solomon’s Song of Songs is an allegory "The passionate love of a man and a woman mirrors the depth of the Jewish people’s relationship with… Read more

Previously, in one of My Posts, I stated how My mind works in basically two directions That is happening to a greater degree now Having accomplished what I set out to do just a few days ago I have, just two weeks, to try to improve, My next Holiday Party Some of the things I setup for the last one worked out well Now My mind is thinking at the moment what I can improve on, yet I am also seeing the conclusion in My mind But back to the present I really and truly appreciate the feedback I get on this site from all of You, like I have said before the idea of xHam, was to be an erotic Social… Read more

As usual I am out back on the porch, with My Friends, Abs*lut and the Insects (They have Their Sugar fix now, that They were all Jonesing for) I Paid bills all day long for, Shit's and Giggles I took over that task, simply for the reason, that I am well organized and I like to know where, all of it is going I make folders, digital or physical, for everything Not only do I pay the bills here, but I pay all of My roommates bills, in Upstate NY He is a retired US ARMY full bird Colonel, but He really does not get that much money, from His sacrifice at all I do not care what He runs up on My… Read more

I wholeheartedly, apologize, to all of the People who read My Daily Posts, that a day lapsed, without Me, writing a new one The one I published, on 12.9.2021, was someone else's words, but mean a lot to Me personally I was just overwhelmed, by all of the Shit I had to clean up, after holding My first Trial run Party, before the bigger one, I am holding on Christmas day (about 40 People) I know the Costume I am going to wear then This one (It is the same exact style costume from VS, that G*sselle B*ndchen wore on the Runway, for a VS Christmas, lingerie show) Maybe keep on the cuffs like… Read more

I've gotta take a little time A little time to think things over I better read between the lines In case I need it when I'm older This mountain, I must climb Feels like a world upon my shoulders Through the clouds, I see love shine Keeps me warm as life grows colder In my life, there's been heartache and pain I don't know if I can face it again Can't stop now, I've traveled so far To change this lonely life I wanna know what love is I want you to show me I wanna feel what love is I know you can show me (hey) Gotta take a little time Little time to look around me I've got nowhere left to hid… Read more

Just Finished Making Dinner, waiting for My Fiancée to come Home Bet He heard a lot of comments, about last night, in His office !! And saw some of the Cell Phone pictures also LOL After My Fiancée, Fucked Me like an An*m*l (not just Vaginally, but next Anally) And I have had some big Cocks in My Ass before, but not like His !! My Warrior, God I love Him !! I Had to push Myself, up off the Counter. Shit, my knees were even shaking and every nerve in My body was going a million miles per hour And I had to step over all of the Shit, He cleared off of the counter I did not even want to… Read more

All of My guests left a little before, 10:30 PM I will write about it later After the people were gone, I grabbed My Fiancée, pulled Him into My Kitchen and He Fucked My Brains out, But Good Bent Me over the Counter, smashing Pots and Pans on to the floor Shit flying everywhere !! And He rammed His Cock In and Out of Me, Fucking Hard and Passionately We Orgasmed at the same time !! That never happens to Me, only once in awhile, without Direct Clitoral Stimulation Not this Fucking time !!!! My Kikuyu Warrior !! Love Him to Pieces !! My reward for The Whole Shebang !! LOL No s… Read more

So, I am Finishing a Cigarette, right now, and half way through My second Bottle of Champagne About ready for Showtime Foods humming along Decided to be even more of an Exhibitionist Pull My Tits Up and out, with about half of My Nipples showing Pull the back of My Thong up, to show more of My ass And keep My Mesh Skirt at Butt level (I have some Pubic hair, that will show also, LOL !!) So off I go "Into the Wild Blue Yonder !! Got some more stuff to drink, while I serve everything (6 Main dishes) This Photo shows the Mesh Skirt to a degree Everything I am wearing tonight, except… Read more

Got up at 4:00 AM, instead of 5 Ground some beans and having a cup of coffee and a cigarette out on the Porch So a short post, Today Getting ready to Rock and Roll with the Party tonight at 6:00 PM Tons, to do !! First make breakfast for the two of Us Next Makeup and costume to get in the Mood Then finishing cooking all of the Shit I have planned All of my Costume except the sweater Yet, have to wear a full apron So I will describe it all Tomorrow Meanwhile, I received more of The Photoshoot I Don't Think this photo will be used in Advertising (Low Res)… Read more

All day, today I spent, pre-positioning, everything I could think of, to have My trial run party tomorrow at 6:00 PM First I got My costume in order, put out a new package of stockings and cleaned My shoes Next thing I did, lightly dusted and rearranged some furniture (I brought some smaller tables into the sitting area, for Drinks and Appetizers, for example) And finally, I set up the Dining table I copied a very old, Martha Stewart idea, that I saw on TV, back in the day What She did was pretty neat, She used a mixture of China, so that none of it was the same, I did the exact same thin… Read more

There is no way in Hell, that I am going to get any sleep, tonight So, I grabbed a bottle of V*dka, to chill out on Our Back Porch, for sure I was quite aware, of what was expected of Me Today, and what I had to accomplish, for this, paid photoshoot It was arranged, about 3 Months ago, for a Japanese Dept Store, in Tokyo, Japan (I have My Portfolio on, M*del M*yhem, to acquire Modeling work) I ending up, giving, the legal Model Release Contract and the Payment info, to , Liam's, Investment Firms, Lawyers, and said, "Go for it, Motherfuckers !!" They negotiated the cost, per hour for Me,… Read more

I'm pretty buzzed, and it is already, after 12 PM here Tomorrow, I will not be online much, I have a lot of Preparation to do, for My first Dinner Party on the 7th And to make Shit even more fun, I am Modeling Today, for a Paid Photoshoot After the Amélie upgrades, by the end of 2022 , I can get paid, 1,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000.00, KSh (Credit card or Direct Deposit, Motherfucker) LOL At least with the Model Contract I signed, I will get My photos, in a Day, and as long as I do not get paid for Them by someone else, I can share them anywhere I will put some i… Read more

Sixth Night, in the Books I have been working My ass off lately, getting ready, for making and serving, all by Myself, a large Dinner on Christmas Day for about 30 people By having a trial run on the 7th, with 12 People from My Fiancée's office Spent last night, driving to various Street Vendors getting Meat and Vegetables and other shit Now, Nairobi is not a place, You should go into at night, because it is sort, out of control, in the dark, in certain areas Some of which I went today (I always carry an H&K Karma k… Read more

The Fifth Day of Hanukkah, is now logged in, to the Permanent Record As You know, the One record, that is kept on You, under a Mountain in Colorado, that the Little Man, pushes it around all day long Like in the ending of "Raiders of the Lost Ark" My Permanent record needs, at the very least, a Fucking Forklift instead (6 tons at the minimum !!) So, I do not want You to Ignore, the poor old PUD, While I finish Breakfast and shop for Tonight's Dinner More of My Christmas, Wyoming, Photoshoot for instant re… Read more

My Last Post for Today I am pretty Buzzed, and I am on My second bottle of V*dka I wrote about the Piercings, and Tattoos I am going to get, Yesterday I have always been a Person that wanted to be Anonymous, and I liked being a Wallflower It took Years of Training, by Two very close People, (one in the US and the other in the UAE), in My life For Myself, to become self-confident, in any situation confronting Me And, in the End, for Them eventually, They completely broke, the Wild Horse (Me) and made Amélie, in Their eyes, a worthy And an expensive, Thoroughbred, to be unleashed on an… Read more

Finished Dinner a bit ago So, I am sitting out on My porch in Nairobi with a bottle of really good V*dka 1/3 already consumed (I will finish it tonight) Part of being a modern Ménagère ("Mother's Little Helper") Now on to some more stories about My looney life, past and present I got a call this afternoon, from Vixen Films, that They want Me to come to Israel soon, to do some of My Contract work for them I had acquired, about 4 Months ago, a F*ve Year eVisa to go in and out of all African Countries for business The Cuntries (LOL), obviously, that are not on the US COVID ban list Makes i… Read more

I have My Laptop in the Kitchen, while I am making Jewish Penicillin (Chicken soup) Making a Corn bread and a Cake from scratch (Glass of wine by My side) 4th night of Chanukkah yesterday (Church on Sunday !!) Not much going on, except continuing, to Housebreak My Fiancée Got Him, not to sit at the Head of the table, only on My left side, while I sit at the Head of the table Fuck that sexist Bullshit !! What Amélie wants, Amélie Gets !! So on to the gratuitous, and expected, photos of Me in a Christmas c… Read more

Just a quickie this Morning (LOL) I am going food shopping in a bit I have found some great local markets here, (I Hate that chain store Shit) Hard to find decent Goat meat, but so far I have And some great, fresh Vegetables and Fruit I keep trying My best to make different shit, for all of Our meals I made Western Style Omelette's, this morning Looking like this "Aren't You late for Work, Honeybee, and why are You looking at Me like that ??" So here is Your Morning, Noon or Night Fix at the moment !!… Read more

My last post for Today I have decided to get, over the next Year, 2022, a total of 16 more body piercings (I am Crazy after All !!) Upgrading the Amélie Entertainment System !! I will be fully optioned out !! Rust Proofing is extra !! Have to keep busy !! LOL Got one done, this Afternoon A Diamond stud in the side of My nose (1 down, 15 to go) Picture soon My list: 1. My eyebrow on the Left side, a curved barbell (I want this one that says, "FUCK YOU") 2. Platinum stud, above My center lip… Read more

This is one of My favorite Professional Photoshoots The Location was at a Ranch in Wyoming, for a Man who invited Me there and hired a Professional Photographer I brought some of My favorite ornaments, especially the "Tweety Bird" tree topper Back then, I made an obscene amount of money for Modeling, even though I am an Amateur I have done a lot of Modeling from 42 years old ,up to about a Year ago, Worldwide, mostly due to the fact, that I am on Model Mayh*m The reason that I like it, is that I prepared My hair with a curling iron, (I always do My own makeup, also) And it came out prett… Read more